Who is He that makes me happy? Who is He that brings me peace? Who is He that brings me comfort, and turns the bitter into sweet? Who is stirring up my passion? Who is rising up in me? Who is filling up my hunger with everything I need? Creator God, the Great I AM, the LORD of all, Rose of Sharon, the Righteous Son, the Three-in-One, He is YAHWEH. The LORD said to [Moses], "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say." -Exodus 4:11 | |
Alright, time for a 30-second synopsis. My life in CRAZY busy, but things are going pretty well. Classes are cool. Music theory will be fun - lab (ear-training) will be hard. German will be kinda hard but also fun and challenging and interesting. Turkish was really scary the first day, but the second day was totally fun - it's a really fun language! My history class is l-o-"ong" - 3 hours straight, once a week - but again very interesting. It's ancient Middle Eastern civilization, which is basically most-ancient-ever civilizations. Also, I made Music 10 - woohoo! good audition - and will start voice lessons soon, and since it carries an ensemble requirement, I will be singing in the Baroque ensemble. I'm basically doing that just because it fits my schedule, unlike everything else, but I think it'll be cool, and a little different, and... yeah. Yay for music. Speaking of music, Full Measure preliminary auditions just ended tonight, and call-backs are Thursday. In less than a week, we will have a whole new group of newbies, I'm so excited. Campus Crusade stuff is cool, but very busy right now. I'm anxious to get to know more freshmen. Small group starts tomorrow night. Good stuff. My dorm this year is really cool - Shannon and I are having fun living together (I think!). We can cook, which is way cool, and we have matching duvet covers and lots of cute things in our room. (hehe) I miss home, but in a happy way. Like, that probably doesn't really make sense, but..... I'm happy in that I feel at peace about everything at home, and I know that I have an amazingly loving family (that extends beyond my actual "family") to come home to. People I love are doing awesome things and God is blessing them as He is blessing me. I feel so good about things at home. Unfortunately, I must now hit the books. But, all my love goes out to all o' y'all (or yous guys, whichever applies). May His grace and mercy fill you with peace and joy. I love ya! | |
WOOHOOOOOOOOO PENN!!!!!!! College!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!! I LOVE being back here and I LOVE not being a freshman. I feel so FREE and everything feels fresh and exciting. Everywhere I go, it's a reunion. Back with friends, back into my "real life" for right now. I love it and I think the yucky feelings last week were probably a sign that it was time to go. Feeling so horrible last week made me really appreciate being here, having a fresh start, and so much to look forward to. I am so thankful. God is the best!!! To everyone in my wonderful home state - I love you so much and I'm so thankful for the amazing summer I had with you. Thank you for loving me, for being a part of this amazing summer and allowing me to learn and grow so much. You mean the world to me, no matter where I am. To everyone at Penn - WAHOO!!! Time to party!!! :) Love and peace to all - God is good, all the time. :) |
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
This is even harder than I thought. I think I'm depressed about going away and not coming back until Christmas and I've been lying to myself about it for two days now. I actually physically feel depressed, and it sucks, but all of a sudden I'm kinda scared. Penn is great and I know things will be great there but I guess I'm afraid of losing... well, the closest thing to home I've known thus far. I'm not the same naive little girl I was a year ago who thought I could pack everything into a box and bring it with me. I can't drag Brentwood to Philadelphia. And what if... God, I am being so stupid! There's no reason to think I'm going to lose this home - or what's important about it, at least - just like there was no reason to fear back in May that it wouldn't feel like home this summer. It all worked out better than expected, right? So why worry now? I guess it's just harder to say goodbye when you have a one-way ticket and your own set of luggage. And knowing myself really deep down, I'm probably also terrified that the next three days aren't going to be absolutely perfect and things will be left unresolved and... Man I really hate myself for being so dramatic and emotional sometimes. I just... I almost feel sick. I hate it. It's been going on for two days and I just want to feel at peace but I'm stuck with this sick feeling. And in the meantime I feel like I'm wasting the time I have left and definitely doing nothing for God's glory and... I guess it's time for bed. Love and peace to all - you all mean the world to me. |
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