July 8 - Aug. 2, 2005

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

	"If God loves His enemies like that, imagine how He loves His children!"

Sunday, July 31, 2005

(1:28 PM) How would I feel if I told Jae-Suk he had to sit down like the rest of the kids, and he got mad at me? What would it be like if I came to work one day and Jae-Suk didn't run up to hug me? If he just looked the other way? What if that was what it felt like? A child you adored who no longer adored you... This must be one of the many reasons why God tells us to be like children. Jae-Suk would never do that for more than one day. Somewhere in the middle of the sermon today, this is what came into my mind. (11:51 PM) They would tell you that I'm sorry For being cold and blind and weak They would tell you that it's only That I have a stubborn streak If these walls could speak They would tell you that I owe you More than I could ever pay Here's someone who really loves you Don't ever go away That's what these walls would say And Father, I want to thank You For the gifts You've given me And the people, whose lives I treasure And so constantly want to be with them always Knowing every little thing they think and do And I know this is just a tiny part Of the way You must feel too Father, Father, Father, thank You...

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Too much too fast... summer... ack!!! So many great things have happened, but I'm feeling a little sad tonight because it's really getting to me that I kept in touch with everyone - including my TN friends - 100 times better when I was away than since I've been here. I feel bad and yet I just can't do it - for the first time in a really long time, I really feel like being relatively antisocial and just living in my own little bubble because I'm too busy to keep up with everything else. I LOVE my job, but it makes everything else so hard... There's just no time! I feel like summer has been going by and there is so much I wanted to do that won't get done... So many people I wanted to be there for that I don't think I can... I feel pretty incapable. That's probably a good thing because I am. I'm sure it's good for me for God to show me that I can't be a superhero over-achiever, especially not on my own, but... I wanna be a superhero! I wanna be everything for everyone! I gotta learn how to fight that... Anyways, this has been a great time of spiritual growth, and I feel like I've finally made it over (pretty much) my first really big hurdle in my race for the crown, and it's incredible to see how much work God has done and begin to contemplate how much more He will do. I have been growing in the last year as a Christian. Like, for real. Imagine that! It's very encouraging, even though I have a greater idea now of how far I really have to go... it will come at the proper time. (Galatians 6!) I really really really love kids. Like, I'm so crazy about them I can't stand it. They're the coolest little things that ever graced the face of the earth. And ya know what's cool? God wants us to be like them! Yay! We get to play on the playground!!! Waaaahhhhhhhoooooooooo!!!!!!! Hehe, just kidding. I'm being goofy tonight. I need to go get some clothes out of the dryer. This has been a random post by 'Stina.