I think this might actually be for real. It sounds so crazy and there are a hundred voices in my head telling me I can't do it or that I don't actually want it, but... I can see it. And somehow I just can't imagine doing anything else. I want to become a choir director. I want to teach music, teach singing. And I want to conduct. There it is. Not a secret anymore. If anyone has suggestions for me on how to get there, I gladly welcome them! | |
This is Asher Malachi Owens. He was born last Tuesday to two of the sweetest people on the planet (they go to my home church). He was 10 weeks early so he's really tiny - keep him in your prayers. But how precious... | |
Ah, it's Christmastime. My initial thoughts? 1. Yay! I love Christmastime! 2. C-Lo, let's have a non-"leidenschaft-y" Christmas this year, ok? 3. God, can I have a non-"leidenschaft-y" Christmas this year? Basically... I love this time of year, a whole whole lot, and in fact I think Christ's birth is something we should celebrate and honor much more than once a year. I hate what the world has done to Christmas. It is sooooooooo much more. And I really really really want to spend the next 2 1/2 weeks NOT feeling homesick. I want to enjoy God's presence in my life right here wherever I'm at, and keep my focus on HIM alone, not anyone else. I'm not saying I don't want to love my friends and family but... I need to spend a lot more time just loving God this Christmas season. The only Leidenschaft I should feel should be at the thought of our great, holy, awesome God stepping down from His throne and becoming a helpless infant lying in a manger, only to grow up and be trampeled on, to suffer, die, and be raised again to save His own creation who strayed from Him - to bring us back home, to the kingdom of Heaven He wanted to share with us even though we don't deserve it. The story of the prodigal son is so incredible... Our God is so amazing. Can I just say something real quick to my readers? I know that not all of you who read my Xanga are born-again Christians, and you might not even know much about how I came to be one myself. (Please feel free to ask me about it anytime - I'd love to tell you about it!) But if there's anything I should ever share with you - any window into a piece of me that I should choose to open up to you via this crazy thing called Xanga - it is the unfathomable and unimaginable greatness of the God who created all of us and the unsurpassable joy of knowing Him personally - knowing that He gave everything in order to save me from myself. My sins deserve punishment and death and nothing will ever change that. But God chose to be a God of both justice and grace, and in His great mercy He took the punishment for me and gave Himself, His own precious Son, as a sacrifice to redeem me. If you don't know this to be true, if you haven't received that gift of salvation or don't understand what I'm talking about, I pray that you will ask me or another Christian about it and that you will just ask God to reveal Himself to you. Even if you're not sure if you believe in God right now, you can still ask Him and He will do it. And as we all enter into this wonderful Christmas season, I pray that our hearts and our minds are focused on what Christmas is really all about, and here's a hint: it's not about us! I didn't plan on writing that long of a post at all. Much love to everyone. Oh, and by the way, "Leidenschaft" is the German word for passion, which comes from the verb "leiden" which means "to suffer." It still means passion but I think it's somehow more descriptive than the word passion itself. |
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