Dec. 29, 2005 - Jan.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

I want to just be me. As in, me with God, not me without God. But me without a constant preoccupation with someone or something else. It's not about them, it's about Him, and me, together. I'm ready for my relationship with God not to be all about my relationship with them. So many strange feelings... It's kinda scary. I'm not sure I know exactly who I am without all that I've clung to for so long. And some things hurt. But if I can really be free... Wow, that will be such a great feeling! Somehow this semester, I want to discover who I am and learn to just be me and enjoy being me.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

I love my friends. They really are the greatest, and I don't appreciate them enough. God is so good to me and I really don't understand why I am so consumed by... well, basically one thing. I don't understand if I'm supposed to feel that way, I don't understand if I'm supposed to care that much, and I don't know if I even make sense. The only thing I do know is that God is holy and amazing and He has given me a thousand other blessings that I wish I were consumed by.

Monday, January 02, 2006

I highly suspect that the greatest prevention and/or remedy for anger, frustration, hurt feelings, and sin itself is compassion. It's the best tool for preventing selfishness (which, in my mind, encompasses all sin), stopping it if it's already begun, or bringing about repentance if it has already happened. It's the best cure for hurt feelings. And I do believe there is anger and frustration that is not selfish, but it is not directed toward people. When compassion comes, all selfish anger and frustration and all anger and frustration with people melts away. It is SO COOL! It makes life that much easier. It makes righteousness possible. It makes love possible. Just thought I'd share. I think my personal theme for 2006 might be compassion and selflessness. I'm really ready to live very differently this year.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Highlights of 2005 JANUARY – "Girls State Northeast" retreat FEBRUARY – My 1st spiritual birthday. February was amazing. MARCH – My birthday, the Full Measure concert (with my family there), the Ginny Owens concert during Jesus Week APRIL – Declaring a major, mother-daughter weekend with Shannon and her mom, realization made on the 26th (see Xanga from that date) MAY – Finishing my freshman year of college, Amber and Mitzi’s visit, living with Bri and Danielle during senior week JUNE – Girls State, starting my job teaching at the museum JULY – Falling in love with my kids at the museum, the Beth Moore Bible study, finally experiencing a long-awaited healing and making it through my first big struggle as a Christian AUGUST – Rejoicing with the Galardi family, visiting Shannon in California, singing with Mrs. Clark on my last Sunday at church before I left SEPTEMBER – Getting back to Penn and reuniting with everyone!, starting my voice lessons for Music 10 OCTOBER – D.C. trip with Shannon, singing “Brave” at FamPAN (on the 22nd) NOVEMBER – Ridiculously beautiful weather, Mom visiting for the Full Measure concert, Thanksgiving Philly/NYC trip with the BHS band DECEMBER – Coming home for the holidays!!! Especially visiting the high school and my first Sunday back at church, when I was running around hugging everyone!!!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Currently Reading The Chronicles of Narnia By C.S. Lewis see related THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA (the books) are FREAKIN' AMAZING. Like, for real. Go read 'em.